It's October 31st, a day which comes with two feelings: 1) Hooray! It's finally here!! 2) Wait, how did it get here so fast? EEP! In other words, it means I'm both excited and terrified about the journey I'm getting ready to set out on.
Ironic that today is Samhain, a time of new beginnings as well. It's the Celtic new year, a time to shake off the old year, look back on who you are and have become, and prepare for the new challenges ahead. What's ironic about this holiday that occurs the same time every year? It shows up the day before the biggest, scariest challenge I've taken on in years. Writing 50,000 words is not a scary task. Daunting, definitely, but not so much scary. What's scary is conquering myself. I have a severe lack of belief in myself, something that always magnifies in incredible ways when you're starting off on a track leading you to something you've always dreamed of. I'm scared of shaking off the old me, but then again that's exactly what Samhain is about.
I went to the pre-kickoff party today. (The kickoff party is late at night and with work in the morning, it just wasn't the best idea for me.) It was refreshing to meet so many people in the area that I suddenly had so much in common with. We're a hodge-podge of randomness, regular people with irregular hobbies (for most of us it seemed that way anyway). I can't wait to spend more time with all of you at the write-ins and the TGIO party in December. More on those later.
Tomorrow begins the journey. Tomorrow I try to begin the path of conquering my fears of myself. Tomorrow I take the first steps in the direction of my dreams. Thank you for following me, for cheering me on. I need all of you, both now and all the way up to the very end. (And the end is not just the end of NaNoWriMo, the end is publication....then hopefully many more publications after the first!)
See you tomorrow.
2 hours 5 minutes and counting...
Yours Truly,
Mrs. C
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